~ Seeing. Not Looking ~

Emotions.
Sentiment.
Sometimes I have a hard time understanding this part of human behaviour.

I have feelings, of course. I can feel sadness, hate, joy, happiness and more.
But I rarely understand them. It's like speaking an unknown language.

I observe how others react in certain situation and draw my conclusions, but sometimes the range of reactions is so diversified that I have no clue how I am supposed to act.

Obvious things are a bit more easy.
When you cry.... you want to be comforted.
When you rage about someone... you want to hear I hate that person as well.

But the "not so obvious" emotions?
This is a closed book to me.

Unfortunetaly.... even when I TRY to understand something because I care.... all I hear is: WHY? Can't you see!? Do you really need to ask??
Well... of course I need to.
If I didn't I wouldn't have asked in the first place.

Yeah~
The probably first question of all.
Why English?
I can't say why. I feel safe, more comfortable, confident and overall just... good... when talking or writing in English.
I never had to "learn" it like I had to learn math.
I mean.. sure I needed to practrice the vocabulary, but I never had to sit at home and really learn.
I just accepted facts like "this is a car" and never tried to explain "car means this and that in german or latin or whatever language".
A car is a car, period.

I'm far from perfect. That's a fact too.

It's easier to express feelings too. And again I can't say why.

Sometimes I wonder what kind of answers people are expecting when asking me a question.
I usually give them the right ones.
At least... I think they are the right ones.
But obviously, judging by the sometimes shocked, sometimes startled, sometimes confused and sometimes angry expression of those people, they aren't.

Pray tell... what are right answers?
Do you really want to hear a lie when asking me if I found the way to point XY easily when you clearly know I never was there before?
Or when asking me if I am fine when I'm obviously ill?

No, I don't think lying is an option...