~ Seeing. Not Looking ~

I'm learning. And I understand some of these concepts more and more.
At least I try.
To be honest it's more like try and error.
But it works fine for me.

I do sentiment in a small amount myself.
I still don't keep letters, even when they're sweet and adorable, though.
But I keep ordinary items that bare some deeper meaning to me hidden away in a box.
I have to admit I forget about them after a week or so.
I know that I have hidden stuff there, but I barely remember what.
See? I got the concept of that.

I meet up with people and friends more often, too.
It's still strange and like a whole new world, but after an hour or so my social mask is kicking in and I'm even blending into "the crowd" sometimes.
It seems that my social batteries gained more capacity.
They're not full for weeks after meeting someone.

Still....
Alone is my favourite most of the time.
And no, none of my friends should be offended by that, there's no need for this.
Liking to be alone doesn't mean I don't like you.
Some emotions are still hidden to me and I think those concepts, like guilt, mercy and pity, will be a sealed book to me for a long time or even until the very end.
But that's okay.
Guilt, mercy and pity, to stay with those examples, are useless anyway (to me).